In the FACE!

As I feel I have just taken one to the chin today. I feel a great amount of release. It's like when you're in a fight, and you've been paranoid about getting hurt so you've just been dodging up to this point. Finally this guy lands one, and then you're not so afraid...and in fact you're a little pissed that you let him.

The other situation is that he lands one on you and you are so stunned that he just jumps on you and goes to town. That was me a few weeks ago...still slightly, but now a new area has opened up...a new place to be hurt and I've hurt not so deeply YET. It's a good thing to know that, and an even better one to prevent it from getting worse.

I can't explain how much I feel God when I'm under incredible stress. It harkens me back to the Believing Brain. Makes me doubt that faith...but it feels so real. I can't explain it...and I feel so much more alive. Yah, I feel like I'm dodging bullets everyday...but...when I'm not in this sort of situation...I feel miserable anyway...and now I feel really good despite having to work a bunch...may not feel that way in the morning...but I can't explain my feelings...and no I'm not high.

I'm more creative when I'm in trouble...that makes sense according to the information in the believing brain, because when a person is under more stress...the body apparently sees more patterns....even if they aren't apparent... so I can make more connections...even if they aren't apparent...in a way being an artist...is finding patterns and connections that aren't apparent...or ones that illustrate a concept...in a new way.....but make it understandable to the viewer....something brand new stating something old...but speaking understadably to an audience.

Art is finding a new pattern to an old truth, but giving that pattern the ability to speak to the populous.

hmmmm...I'ma a go think about things...well...actually I'ma go to bed :) Thanks God for another wonderful day...It was terrible...but so revitalizing...thank you for the bad. :)