I Thirst

I've been waiting to write this one...

My heart has been yearning for more than there is. I want change. I want difference. I want to be better. I want to do greater things, yet I hold myself back.

I made this stop-motion animation that personifies dirt that is dried out and incredibly thirsty.

Here's the video



The dirt looks for water when There is water all around it, but there's this transparent layer. You can see what's on the other side. You see what you want, but can't get to it. It's clearly out of reach, but you want it...it's so close...but you know where you are now is not near there.

It makes me Thirsty.

I've seen people healed.
I've known people healed.
I've seen the world flipped upside down by God.
My world has been flipped upside down by God.

YET...

there is so much I want.

and no it's not...a new car...the brand new video Game...a girlfriend...or anything like that...

it's ability...
it's opportunity...
it's Love

and all from a higher power...

I could care less how fast you can do scales on your instrument...

I could care less about the stock market opportunities...

I could care less about your girly-girl cute romantic tv flick "loves" coming to life...

I have a passion
Get it out of your mind...

what you've been thinking...

up till this point you've been judging what I say weighing it with a measure...

throw it out...

the lord doesn't need people who are so scared of making a mistake...that they never do anything...
he's waiting for a people with passion...he's waiting for a people who don't care what the paradigm is...he's waiting for a people who want to do his work so much that they don't care if they say something wrong, because they're humble enough to admit they were wrong....

that's where growth begins....

with a will...

that's where healing begins...

with a will...

it's time you started to make God's will yours.

his will isn't for you to go to a church building or group...his will is for you to be the church...to THIRST FOR HIM!
don't get me wrong...children of God are amazing...and we should not forsake the gathering of ourselves together...

but when God can only use you in that space...he's not using you....

"assemble the preachers to preach to one another..."

Hell NO!

Jesus' ministry was absolute....
There is Truth Jesus is that truth

I so desperately want people to actually do what's in the Bible, and yes I understand that God moves it at his time...but
...I have a hard time believing that God needs time...to work on people...

yes God has different things for each of us...he told a rich young ruler to sell everything and follow him...while he told a demon possessed man to stay where he had lived and offer a testimony...

but I feel like the modern day Christian is the rich young ruler...they've followed all the commandments since they were young...but still can't bring themselves to be like the chosen who sacrificed everything....

as much as we try to tell ourselves we did....we made that decision...isn't strange that change happens so pain-stakingly slow?

what if instead of the pleasures we wasted our money on...like movies or ice cream...or some sort of indulgence we gave them back...what if we fasted like Jesus said we would when he had left us...and used the Xtra (that's for you pastor Matt) cash to do some good...what if we actually did do the little things that would amount to benefits for other people...

what if we did care enough about people in Africa and Asia that we would actually learn about them...and learn what problems they're going through...so we could help them out...instead of just sending them some really cheap toys in a box once a year...so we can pretend we're "Christian"
Cause that's what we do...we offer up cheap toys in offering..

I'm not asking you to go yell on a corner...though I've come very close to yelling in many places...(but that would just be way too easy wouldn't it...to just yell "Jesus Loves you" "you said that very convincingly young man...I believe you" *I wish* :)

Our generation is one of results...and if anyone knows anything about results they would know they come from something else...

results result..from something else...

however our generation has forgotten that...

they expect their lives to yield fruit...to result without the work that goes in before...and the world recognizes Christians by talking about results...but never yielding....

well...

I'm tired of talking I'm ready to yield amazing things...Brought about by God inside me....he gave you a spirit use it...

and the main reason why we don't use it...is because...we're not serious about God...I'm guilty too...but that doesn't nullify or make it right....

You're relationship with God is not to be compared with anyone else's...

but I can't help look at my own and ask...and long for more of God

once you've tasted that he's good
how can you look at the world...and

the answer is when we look at the world...we look at everyone else...other Christians...we see them doing what is "normal" and we automatically think whatever they're doing is ok...and we lose track of what God was saying to us...

if we were truly serious about God...we wouldn't have awards for Best Christian...
We would have...prayer...constantly...and not just while we're doing everything....but we would have hours long prayer...by ourselves...cut out with God...and on a regular daily basis...

we would see him move....we would fast on a whim...and do it often...we wouldn't care about routine....we would hear God's voice...because his Children hear his voice...and if you don't you can't be his Child...

We're a generation that doesn't like to hear with our ears....we don't want to understand in our hearts...and we don't want to turn....and we don't want to be healed....because it would be too much trouble....

Ever since I've become a Christian I've been asking if I am one.....am I really one...is this really what it's all about....

and the time that I knew when I was a Christian without a doubt was right when I began...because I heard God's voice...and I did it...every time....and after being immersed with other Christians....I learned norms...and let go of that Intimacy...

being reduced to pastors...to try to tell me what I'm doing wrong...and that's just it...pastors shouldn't be telling me what I'm doing wrong...

I'm all for people correcting me...I'm all for being humbled....by pastors or whoever...but God should tell correct you way before any person...God has the first say....

I could totally relate with Shane Claiborne....he wrote the irresistible revolution...

I don't feel like There's a whole lot that separates "Christians" from nice people....

because nice... is a luke-warm term...and those who are luke-warm are spit out by God...

but if we truly moved beyond nice....and moved to Passionate, Loving people...now there would be something.

we didn't do the regular Christians things....and don't worry if you're not creative...God is...he's got a lot of history with problem solving....trust him he'll tell you stuff...

I've come across fiery Christians without any know-how.... (they don't know how to hear God....they don't know the Scriptures) but they know how to Love...like it's nobody's business....and eventually you see them start to hear God's voice...and they learn the scriptures...

and...

they start to say....hey...I've already been doing all this...because they're sold out to God...

they didn't have any remorse when they gave...and they gave anything and everything....

I'm sure if you're a Christian reading this...You've wondered...would you give your life for God...would you die for him...and I'm writing this wondering...would you live for him...cause it's SO MUCH HARDER!...

or is it easier...because...if you are living for God...you do what he wants you to do....you listen to him..and you do it...

sounds easy...

but we shy away...

I don't wanna' pray I wanna'....do this...or I need to relax blah

I'm so tire of writing this...you guys know what I'm talking about...do it...and not because I say so...not because you respect me...or don't....or you think what I'm doing or saying is right....

find out. stop agreeing...
Talk to God!
he confirms things to be true...because he is Truth... pray fast until you find out

"why weren't you at church?"...."because I was praying"